Migraines suck.
The Palace will reopen tomorrow, for business as usual. I should feel more like posting then.
POLT
Friday, November 30, 2007
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Everyone, down in the pool....
Why show this????
Eh, why not? Anyone for a dip in the pool?
POLT Oil: 90.83 (-.60); Gas: 3.08 (-.01)
Listening to the Packers-Cowboys game
Eh, why not? Anyone for a dip in the pool?
POLT Oil: 90.83 (-.60); Gas: 3.08 (-.01)
Listening to the Packers-Cowboys game
Undress me, will I look like a fool (Part 85)...
Once more, kids, it's time for...
I LOVE the Cowboys, as everyone who visits the Palace knows, and I particularly like Tony Romo. he's a damn good quarterback, and he always looks like he's having a blast out there on the field. Plus, his dimples when he smiles are just SO adorable.
Anyway, tonight, the Cowboys play the Packers, and whoever wins will have the best record in the NFC and more than likely, home field advantage throughout the playoffs. Of course I want Dallas to win, and I'm gonna do everything i can to help them win, including my brand NEW Tony Romo Dallas Cowboys jersey!!!
How 'bout them Cowboys????????
POLT
Listening to "Ball And Chain" by Social Distortion
I LOVE the Cowboys, as everyone who visits the Palace knows, and I particularly like Tony Romo. he's a damn good quarterback, and he always looks like he's having a blast out there on the field. Plus, his dimples when he smiles are just SO adorable.
Anyway, tonight, the Cowboys play the Packers, and whoever wins will have the best record in the NFC and more than likely, home field advantage throughout the playoffs. Of course I want Dallas to win, and I'm gonna do everything i can to help them win, including my brand NEW Tony Romo Dallas Cowboys jersey!!!
How 'bout them Cowboys????????
POLT
Listening to "Ball And Chain" by Social Distortion
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Carmen Queasy, I don't wanna be...
Carmen leaves.
It is as it should be. She very well may be a great designer...but she didn't have a shirt! Yes, Sweet P's shirt was hideous, and ugly, but it was a SHIRT! And Ricky's was held together with pins, but there was at least a SHIRT!! Goodbye, Carmen.
Personally, I thought Kit's outfit was much better than Jack's, but Jack looks much better without his shirt on, so I'm okay with it all.
And one more thing, for the producers of the show: More menswear designs!!! We need more hunky, sexy, ripped male models with killer abs in just thier underwear. Please.
POLT
Listening to "Chasing Cars" by Snow Patrol
It is as it should be. She very well may be a great designer...but she didn't have a shirt! Yes, Sweet P's shirt was hideous, and ugly, but it was a SHIRT! And Ricky's was held together with pins, but there was at least a SHIRT!! Goodbye, Carmen.
Personally, I thought Kit's outfit was much better than Jack's, but Jack looks much better without his shirt on, so I'm okay with it all.
And one more thing, for the producers of the show: More menswear designs!!! We need more hunky, sexy, ripped male models with killer abs in just thier underwear. Please.
POLT
Listening to "Chasing Cars" by Snow Patrol
Cut thier hair short, wear shirts, and boots (Part 20)...
Wife-Beater Wednesday
POLT
Listening to "Bend And Break" by Keane
Tonight, I want to dance with someone else (Part 30)...
Wednesday Weekly White Boy Dance
This week, http://insidestephen.blogspot.com/ has graced us with another dance.Its not too many guys that can look that cute in a sweater vest, dancing or otherwise.
POLT Oil: 91.43 (-3.20); Gas: 3.09 (-.01)
Listening to Law & Order on tv
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
The party animal he turns into...
Here, folks, is one of the party animals from my 40th birthday party at the Parispekings!
You can't see the cake and icing in her hair (on the back of her head), nor all over her pants, and the floor, and probably the dog too....but it's there.
And surprisingly, she didn't have a hangover the next morning...partying like that and no after effects? that's just not right.
POLT
Listening to "Across The Universe" by Rufus Wainwright
You can't see the cake and icing in her hair (on the back of her head), nor all over her pants, and the floor, and probably the dog too....but it's there.
And surprisingly, she didn't have a hangover the next morning...partying like that and no after effects? that's just not right.
POLT
Listening to "Across The Universe" by Rufus Wainwright
A surprise visit, to see my girl...
Today, I took off work. I used my day after Thanksgiving holiday. I had something I needed to accomplish. Sunday night, when Ag was up here, I told her that since I had two Christmas trees to put up (yes, two. A story for another time, though... ), and since I had not changed my living room around since I got the sofa in 2003, I felt it was time to rearranged my living room. And I wanted her to help.
She looked around the room and scoffed. "You have GOT to do some seriously cleaning before I'm helping." And she was right. The living room WAS a mess (and no i did not take any before photos...). SO, last night, before going to bed, I decided to take off work today and do that cleaning.
And that's what I did. I took off today. And then I slept in until about 11:30 am. And then I got online for about an hour and a half. And then I had something to eat. And then I watched some TV. And THEN I did some cleaning. And then I laid down to watch more TV and fell asleep for about 45 minutes. And then I did some more cleaning. And then I watched some more tv. And then I went to get dinner and took it over to mom so we could eat. And then I hung out over there a bit with her. And then I came home.
i was settling in to do so more cleaning (or watch more tv...whatever), when my door buzzer rang. I buzzed them in, not knowing who it was. It was Jason.
I've mentioned him on here, but not for a while. He's this little cutie I met online back in 2005. We hooked up two or three times. And then nothing from him for like well over a year. Probably since the summer of 2005. We talked for a short while. I told him I wished he had called first, because, as you can see from the paragraph above, i didn't get a shower at all today. he said he didn't care. Once we started kissing I worried about just what we were going to be doing, and if my...non-shower-ness would bother him even though he said it didn't. I can safely say it did indeed NOT bother him in the slightest.
Jason reminds me of this one actor. Only this time when he showed up, in his cap, facial hair and glasses, he reminded me so much of this fellow blogger it was eeire!
Actor - Paulo Costanzo
Blogger -Exile
Let me re-iterate, this guy was neither Paulo nor Exile (more's the pity), but he reminded me of a combination of them both. What a pleasant surprise, almost a reward for my cleaning. But honestly, I kept chuckling under my breath, thinking of the resemblence....
POLT
Listening to "Silence" by Delirium featuring Sara MacLachlan
She looked around the room and scoffed. "You have GOT to do some seriously cleaning before I'm helping." And she was right. The living room WAS a mess (and no i did not take any before photos...). SO, last night, before going to bed, I decided to take off work today and do that cleaning.
And that's what I did. I took off today. And then I slept in until about 11:30 am. And then I got online for about an hour and a half. And then I had something to eat. And then I watched some TV. And THEN I did some cleaning. And then I laid down to watch more TV and fell asleep for about 45 minutes. And then I did some more cleaning. And then I watched some more tv. And then I went to get dinner and took it over to mom so we could eat. And then I hung out over there a bit with her. And then I came home.
i was settling in to do so more cleaning (or watch more tv...whatever), when my door buzzer rang. I buzzed them in, not knowing who it was. It was Jason.
I've mentioned him on here, but not for a while. He's this little cutie I met online back in 2005. We hooked up two or three times. And then nothing from him for like well over a year. Probably since the summer of 2005. We talked for a short while. I told him I wished he had called first, because, as you can see from the paragraph above, i didn't get a shower at all today. he said he didn't care. Once we started kissing I worried about just what we were going to be doing, and if my...non-shower-ness would bother him even though he said it didn't. I can safely say it did indeed NOT bother him in the slightest.
Jason reminds me of this one actor. Only this time when he showed up, in his cap, facial hair and glasses, he reminded me so much of this fellow blogger it was eeire!
Actor - Paulo Costanzo
Blogger -ExileLet me re-iterate, this guy was neither Paulo nor Exile (more's the pity), but he reminded me of a combination of them both. What a pleasant surprise, almost a reward for my cleaning. But honestly, I kept chuckling under my breath, thinking of the resemblence....
POLT
Listening to "Silence" by Delirium featuring Sara MacLachlan
I aint cute enough but my jimmy got a flick....
There's no way this guy is cute enough to be surrounded by these three chicks.
Makes you wonder what he's packing? Gotta be something to draw thier interest.
POLT
Listening to "Nothing In My Way" by Keane
Makes you wonder what he's packing? Gotta be something to draw thier interest.
POLT
Listening to "Nothing In My Way" by Keane
An utterance, information, don't mince words (Part 70)..
TMI Tuesdays
These come from http://tmituesday.blogspot.com/1. Are you a member of the mile high club? Nope. I have had sex in a car, but that's it for sex and transportation vehicles. My sexual encounters usually occur in stable enviornments...even if it does feel like the earth moves at time.
2. What is the most public place you have ever had sex? Roof of a parking garage with taller buildings surrounding us.
3. What is your most embarrassing family moment? Mom walking in on me while I was beating off? Yeah, that pretty much has to be it.
4. What kind of birth control do you use?Birth control....um, well sex with other men is a pretty good means of no one getting pregnant, I think.
5. Have you ever had sex in the snow? Rain? It has been snowing and raining while I have had sex before, but no I've never been actually IN the snow or rain while doing so. I did jack off in the rain once....not that thrilling of a tale, though....
Bonus (as in optional):Describe your flirting technique: innuendo, telling a dirty joke, talking about sex life, or physical contact? Ask the other person about themselves, lean in slightly as they talk, maybe place hand on their shoulder or knee, keep eye contact, use bedroom eyes, laugh at thier jokes, pay attention to only them. That or just grab thier crotch...that's worked at times too.
POLT Oil: 94.63 (-2.83); Gas: 3.08 (-.01)
Listening to "Stronger" by Kanye West
Monday, November 26, 2007
I am not your autumn moon, I am the highway...
Ya know, autumn has always been my favorite season. Has been since I was a kid. but this year, well autumn sucks.Let's see what's happened. Well, this autumn I did not get back to Toronto, dad died, I broke up with my boyfriend, and I turned 40.
COME on, Winter! Don't delay!
POLT
Listening to the Steelers-Dolphins game
You're wanting my body, I don't mind (Part 122)...
MONDAY'S HOT SHIRTLESS GUY PHOTOS
This weeks theme: Three guys in one photo!!!!!
You're getting 30 guys for the price on 10!!!
POLT Oil: 97.50 (-.80); Gas: 3.08 (-.01)
Listening to "How Soon Is Now?" by The Smiths
Sunday, November 25, 2007
A sniper at a birthday party...
Yesterday, when i got off work, I had a message on my cell from A Local Celebrity, Mr. David Parispeking's wife. She was asking me what I was doing last night. I called and told them nothing, so they invited me over to thier place to celebrate my 40th birthday.
I got there. Both of the little ParisPekings were up and playing. And man, were they funny. We had pizza, and afterwards, we had, in the words of Abby ParisPeking, "some BURSS-day cake". ALCMDPP slaved for hours over this cake...or so he said. I knew it was more like slaving seconds in front of the cake counter at Martins grocery store.
The candles were hand selected for me, because as ALCMDPP said, they were rainbowish and not quite straight, just like me. Abby and I blew the candles out, and then we ate the cake.
Katie, just a bit over a year, had a clump of cake just put on her high-chair. She proceeded to eat it, but I think she got MORE of the cake on her face. And her hair. And her clothes. And the floor. And probably some on the dog, as well. (I unfortunately being 40 now and old, forgot to take my camera with me. Susan took some photos, one of which was of Katie all messed up with my cake. I was kinda hoping she'd send me that one too, but only sent me these.)
After the cake, it was bubblebath time for Abby. I helped clean Katie off a bit, while ALCMDPP was cleaning the table, and Susan was watching Abby in the tub. But before long, both girls were squeaky clean and in their jammies. And soon after that, they were in bed. The remainder of us watched "Knocked Up", a funny film, but kinda long and not at all as funny as i heard it was supposed to be. but it was enjoyable.
And after this, I left. But I had a fun evening. And I'm glad they invited me over because I didn't really want to be alone the night after i broke up with my boyfriend and the night before I turned 40. It was great to have something to do with someone.
I suppose, when you're gonna turn 40, you find out, through invitations, or a thoughtful email, or funny card, or pleasant phone call, who your real friends are.
POLT
Listening to the Seahawks-Rams football game.
I got there. Both of the little ParisPekings were up and playing. And man, were they funny. We had pizza, and afterwards, we had, in the words of Abby ParisPeking, "some BURSS-day cake". ALCMDPP slaved for hours over this cake...or so he said. I knew it was more like slaving seconds in front of the cake counter at Martins grocery store.
The candles were hand selected for me, because as ALCMDPP said, they were rainbowish and not quite straight, just like me. Abby and I blew the candles out, and then we ate the cake.
Katie, just a bit over a year, had a clump of cake just put on her high-chair. She proceeded to eat it, but I think she got MORE of the cake on her face. And her hair. And her clothes. And the floor. And probably some on the dog, as well. (I unfortunately being 40 now and old, forgot to take my camera with me. Susan took some photos, one of which was of Katie all messed up with my cake. I was kinda hoping she'd send me that one too, but only sent me these.)
After the cake, it was bubblebath time for Abby. I helped clean Katie off a bit, while ALCMDPP was cleaning the table, and Susan was watching Abby in the tub. But before long, both girls were squeaky clean and in their jammies. And soon after that, they were in bed. The remainder of us watched "Knocked Up", a funny film, but kinda long and not at all as funny as i heard it was supposed to be. but it was enjoyable.
And after this, I left. But I had a fun evening. And I'm glad they invited me over because I didn't really want to be alone the night after i broke up with my boyfriend and the night before I turned 40. It was great to have something to do with someone.
I suppose, when you're gonna turn 40, you find out, through invitations, or a thoughtful email, or funny card, or pleasant phone call, who your real friends are.
POLT
Listening to the Seahawks-Rams football game.
Round and around, going down...
God bless you, Aussies. http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21945113/
So, let me see if I got this right...Tony "Bushie's Lapdog" Blair is ousted in Britain. Now, the Australian PM who was in lockstep with Bushie, goes down in flaming defeat as well. Seems anyone hitching thier wagon to Bushie is going down faster than a two dollar crack-whore.
God, I do so hope the American people are smart enough to follow suit next year...although the American voting populace are notoriously stupid. I mean, they voted the chucklehead into office twice...
POLT Oil: 98.30 (-); Gas: 3.09 (-)
Listening to the 'Skins-Bucs football game
So, let me see if I got this right...Tony "Bushie's Lapdog" Blair is ousted in Britain. Now, the Australian PM who was in lockstep with Bushie, goes down in flaming defeat as well. Seems anyone hitching thier wagon to Bushie is going down faster than a two dollar crack-whore.
God, I do so hope the American people are smart enough to follow suit next year...although the American voting populace are notoriously stupid. I mean, they voted the chucklehead into office twice...
POLT Oil: 98.30 (-); Gas: 3.09 (-)
Listening to the 'Skins-Bucs football game
These are people who died, died....
Maybe I should look at turning 40 a different way. We can say that I've lived:
So, I'm not doing too bad. Unfortunately, all these people gained thier fame well before they died, and thusly, when they were much younger than me. *SIGH* Guess I'm destined for obscurity. And old age.
POLT
Listening to "What Do I Get" by The Buzzcocks
- 25 years longer than Anne Frank
- 22 years longer than King Tut
- 21 years longer than Joan of Arc
- 20 years longer than Billy The Kid
- 18 years longer than Buddy Holly & Pocahontas.
- 17 years longer than River Phoenix
- 16 years longer than James Dean, Notorious B.I.G., and Lee Harvey Oswald.
- 15 years longer than Tupac Shakur.
- 14 years longer than Otis Redding, gay pornstar Joey Stephano and Sharon Tate.
- 13 years longer than John Wilkes Booth, Kurt Cobain, Jimi Hendrix, Janis Joplin, Jim Morrison, and the Elephant Man.
- 12 years longer than Caligula.
- 10 years longer than Patsy Cline and Andy Gibb.
- 9 years longer than Rudolph Valentino.
- 8 years longer than Alexander The Great, Karen Carpenter, and Bruce Lee.
- 7 years longer than John Belushi, Eva Braun, Chris Farley, and Eva Peron.
- 6 years longer than Jesse James.
- 5 years longer than Andy Kaufman, Jonathan Larson, and Mozart.
- 4 years longer than George Armstrong Custer, Bob Marley, Marilyn Monrow and Princess Diana.
- 3 years longer than Marie Antoinette and Van Gogh.
- 2 years longer than John F. Kennedy, JR.
- 1 year longer than Amelia Earhart, Che Guevara, Stonewall Jackson, Martin Luthor King JR, Anna Nicole Smith, and Malcolm X.
So, I'm not doing too bad. Unfortunately, all these people gained thier fame well before they died, and thusly, when they were much younger than me. *SIGH* Guess I'm destined for obscurity. And old age.
POLT
Listening to "What Do I Get" by The Buzzcocks
It's all the same to share the pain with me...
Yes, Yes I am now 40. The BIG Four -Oh. Four Zero. Yep, that's me.
I'm not really having a problem with it. I'm having a bigger problem with having to say, think and realize I'm now 40 than I am acutally BEING 40. It's strange.
I just need to think of what good company I am in:
MUSIC
Harry Connick Jr
Billy Corgan, of the Smashing Pumpkins
Noel Gallagher, guitarist of Oasis
Macy Gray
Faith Hill
Dave Matthews
Dave Navarro, guitarist for Jane's Addiction
Gunnar and Matthew Nelson, long-haired blonde twins singers
Politics
Patrick Joseph Kennedy, Congressman from Rhode Island
Gavin Newsom - Mayor of San Francisco
Comic Books
Brian Michael Bendis, a writer
Rob Liefield, an artist
Sports
Boris Becker, tennis
Ty Detmer, football
Deion Sanders, football
Movies
Vin Diesel
Will Ferrell
Jamie Foxx
Philip Seymour Hoffman
Nicole Kidman
Carrie-Anne Moss
Julia Roberts
Mira Sorvino
Television
Criss Angel
Lisa Bonet, Cosby kid
Jeff Corwin, Animal Planet
Jimmy Kimmel
Matt LaBlanc
Julianna Margolies
Journalism
Campbell Brown, Today show host
Anderson Cooper
And.....others
Pamela Anderson
John Wayne Bobbitt
Amy Carter, daughter of Jimmy and Rosalyn
Moon Unit Zappa
There, see I'm not so alone.
POLT
Listening to "All Because Of You" by U2
I'm not really having a problem with it. I'm having a bigger problem with having to say, think and realize I'm now 40 than I am acutally BEING 40. It's strange.
I just need to think of what good company I am in:
MUSIC
Harry Connick Jr
Billy Corgan, of the Smashing Pumpkins
Noel Gallagher, guitarist of Oasis
Macy Gray
Faith Hill
Dave Matthews
Dave Navarro, guitarist for Jane's Addiction
Gunnar and Matthew Nelson, long-haired blonde twins singers
Politics
Patrick Joseph Kennedy, Congressman from Rhode Island
Gavin Newsom - Mayor of San Francisco
Comic Books
Brian Michael Bendis, a writer
Rob Liefield, an artist
Sports
Boris Becker, tennis
Ty Detmer, football
Deion Sanders, football
Movies
Vin Diesel
Will Ferrell
Jamie Foxx
Philip Seymour Hoffman
Nicole Kidman
Carrie-Anne Moss
Julia Roberts
Mira Sorvino
Television
Criss Angel
Lisa Bonet, Cosby kid
Jeff Corwin, Animal Planet
Jimmy Kimmel
Matt LaBlanc
Julianna Margolies
Journalism
Campbell Brown, Today show host
Anderson Cooper
And.....others
Pamela Anderson
John Wayne Bobbitt
Amy Carter, daughter of Jimmy and Rosalyn
Moon Unit Zappa
There, see I'm not so alone.
POLT
Listening to "All Because Of You" by U2
We gonna party like it's your birf-day...
So, today is my 40th birthday.
I have two words for the occaion:
Whoop.
and
Pee.
POLT
Listening to "Ave Maria" by Nana Mouskoura
I have two words for the occaion:
Whoop.
and
Pee.
POLT
Listening to "Ave Maria" by Nana Mouskoura
Let's get unconscious, honey (part 75)...
Unconscious Mutterings
These come from http://subliminal.lunanina.com/. Stop by for a visit.I say ... and you think ... ?
Filthy :: Good sex
Therapist :: Unnecessary
Duck :: Duck, goose
Slant :: Slide
Artist :: Painter
Lease :: Rent
Wish :: Blow out candles
Doormat :: Wet
Global :: Warming
Apartment :: Home
POLT
Listening to "Hung Up" By Madonna
The final countdown begun, three, two, one...
I just sat here and watched that purple countdown thingee at the top count down from 5 minutes, 26 seconds to zero.It was like watching the countdown to Armageddon. Or the countdown on New Years Eve. Either way, I'd regert the things not done.
I won't actually offically be 40 until 1:59 pm this afternoon. So, technically, I've still got a bit under 14 hours left in my 30's....
It's only an 8 hour drive to Toronto...............
POLT
Listening to "Rehab" by Amy Winehouse
Saturday, November 24, 2007
My baby's got a secret (Part 50)...
Secret Saturdays
These come from http://postsecret.blogspot.com/. stop by and visit.
POLT Oil: 98.30 (+.03); Gas: 3.09 (-.01)
Listening to "Dancing Barefoot" by U2
All good things...
Freddie and I are no more.
Okay, enough melodrama. He called me last night, and said that he was wanting a break, and maybe more. When I asked him why, he said the distance was getting to him. I know that wasnt really it, and I could tell, this past week, how...distracted he was when we talked on the phone. So this wasn't totally completely unexpected.
I asked if there was someone else, and he, sweetly, said he didn't want it to be about that. But he did admit that there was a guy back home, where he was now. A guy only two years different in age to him. He and this guy had started talking on MySpace, and now that Freddie was home, he and this guy were hanging out and all. He's not sure it will develop into anything lasting, but he wants to try. And he knows the risk he is taking by ending it with me, but he has to try.
I told him it took balls for him to admit this to me, and to tell me about it. A lot of people would just have fooled around with us both. And it wouldn't have been fair to either the other guy or me for Freddie to it that way.
Freddie said he still wants to talk to me, and despite that probably being a bit difficult, I want to do that too. I know, I know, EVERYONE says "we'll still be friends". In our case, I think we will. Months before Freddie and i ever met in person and "dated", we were talking to each other online and on the phone. I was kind of mentoring him in his coming out and coming to terms with being gay. Our relationship was based on that first, before it got physical.
I told Freddie that if this is what he wants, then this is what we'll do. I refuse to be the boyfriend who demands that his partner not leave him, and begs, threatens and pleads with him not to go. I refuse to prevent Freddie from fully experiencing his life but metaphorically typing him down. He wants to try other things, I'll let him try other things.
But as I told him, I'm not going to be waiting by the phone for him to come back. I'm not saying that to be mean, and I do NOT have some guy waiting in the wings to take his place. however, in the time Freddie and I have been together, I have turned down a few guys who wanted to "date" or try a relationship. If Freddie and I are apart, I told him, I will not turn those offers down if they come along.
I still love the little guy. I believe he still loves me too. I think we always will. But he feels the need to try new things, experience something different. If he and I are meant to be together, we will be. But for now, our lives are taking different paths. Do not let the calmness of this post fool you. I am not happy about this, this is not what I want. But it is the way things are going to be.
I hope he had fun with me, I hope he enjoyed himself. I hope he learned something, maybe, that he can use in the future. And I hope he knows how much he's changed my life. And I hope this new guy (who is much MUCH closer to his age) treats him right. He deserves only the best.
POLT
Listening to "Speed Of Sound" by Coldplay
Okay, enough melodrama. He called me last night, and said that he was wanting a break, and maybe more. When I asked him why, he said the distance was getting to him. I know that wasnt really it, and I could tell, this past week, how...distracted he was when we talked on the phone. So this wasn't totally completely unexpected.
I asked if there was someone else, and he, sweetly, said he didn't want it to be about that. But he did admit that there was a guy back home, where he was now. A guy only two years different in age to him. He and this guy had started talking on MySpace, and now that Freddie was home, he and this guy were hanging out and all. He's not sure it will develop into anything lasting, but he wants to try. And he knows the risk he is taking by ending it with me, but he has to try.
I told him it took balls for him to admit this to me, and to tell me about it. A lot of people would just have fooled around with us both. And it wouldn't have been fair to either the other guy or me for Freddie to it that way.
Freddie said he still wants to talk to me, and despite that probably being a bit difficult, I want to do that too. I know, I know, EVERYONE says "we'll still be friends". In our case, I think we will. Months before Freddie and i ever met in person and "dated", we were talking to each other online and on the phone. I was kind of mentoring him in his coming out and coming to terms with being gay. Our relationship was based on that first, before it got physical.
I told Freddie that if this is what he wants, then this is what we'll do. I refuse to be the boyfriend who demands that his partner not leave him, and begs, threatens and pleads with him not to go. I refuse to prevent Freddie from fully experiencing his life but metaphorically typing him down. He wants to try other things, I'll let him try other things.
But as I told him, I'm not going to be waiting by the phone for him to come back. I'm not saying that to be mean, and I do NOT have some guy waiting in the wings to take his place. however, in the time Freddie and I have been together, I have turned down a few guys who wanted to "date" or try a relationship. If Freddie and I are apart, I told him, I will not turn those offers down if they come along.
I still love the little guy. I believe he still loves me too. I think we always will. But he feels the need to try new things, experience something different. If he and I are meant to be together, we will be. But for now, our lives are taking different paths. Do not let the calmness of this post fool you. I am not happy about this, this is not what I want. But it is the way things are going to be.
I hope he had fun with me, I hope he enjoyed himself. I hope he learned something, maybe, that he can use in the future. And I hope he knows how much he's changed my life. And I hope this new guy (who is much MUCH closer to his age) treats him right. He deserves only the best.
POLT
Listening to "Speed Of Sound" by Coldplay
Friday, November 23, 2007
I ain't seen the sunshine since I don't know when...
One of the classics...Johnny Cash, as done by benjammin887...and a damn impressive job too, I think.
Ole Johnny'd enjoy it, I'm sure.
POLT
Listening to "Folsom Prison Blues" by Johnny Cash
Ole Johnny'd enjoy it, I'm sure.
POLT
Listening to "Folsom Prison Blues" by Johnny Cash
Soft green pastures, shopping malls, or bed...
I did something today that I swore I would NEVER do....I went shopping on Black Friday!!!
Not like those freaks that get up at 3:00 in the morning and stand out in the freezing November cold waiting in line to be one of the first in the store when they open at 4:00am. Not, like my cousin and his wife, who were going to the outlet stores at midnight, cause that's when a couple stores were gonna have all the best sales. Nope not at all like that.
But when other people mentioned it and all the deals available on Black Friday, I'd always say that I'd rather pay a hundred dollars more for something than have to deal with the crowds and traffic and insanity.
But I saw advertised somewhere that Circuit City was going to have the Magellan GPS systems on sale, a hundred dollars off, just today. And since mom will be driving most places by herself now, I wanted to get her a GPS system. Not only for planned trips to places she's never been, but what if she's going somewhere and makes a wrong turn? This will help her get back on track.
So after work, I got to Circuit City, about 4:15 pm. The traffic was heavy, but not insane. And I parked well enough away from the front of the store that I didn't have to deal with people fighting over the closest parking space while trying to navigate between package laden shoppers. I didn't mind the walk.
Inside, again, it was busy, but not insane. I asked a guy about it, and he directed me to the back of the store to a guy names LJ, that was his department and he'd help me. I also at this time noticed they had four registers open, and at least three people in line at each one. I groaned inwardly.
I got back to the section he indicated and I found a whole display of Magellan GPS thingees, but the tags said they were 229...not the ones on sale. So I wandered around a bit, dodging carts, people and displays. I found another Magellen GPS system for $399...but I didn't want that one. See, this is primarily for mom (although I may want to borrow from time to time), and I didn't need something that had a whole bunch of bells and whistles and gadgets she wouldn't use anyway. I wanted a simpler version.
Finally, I located LJ, but before I could make eye contact, this lady in her 50's pushing a cart full of boxes and well as three bags from different stores, pushed right up to him and asked where something was. I didn't hear what she wanted. but LJ told her it was up front with the rest of those things. The lady said she came from there and the girl directed her here. LJ assured her what she wanted was up front. Then she got all huffy and was like, "Well you people need to know where your inventory is. I am NOT going to walk back and forth around this store just because you people don't know you're jobs. If it's not up there, I am walking out leaving all this mechandise here, and you people will be out a sale!"
My thought was, good riddance, don't let the door hit yer ass on the way out. but of course, I didn't say that. Perhaps if she hadn't been up for twelve hours shopping for ten, fighting her way through the crowds, she might not have been as nasty. But eh, whatever.
I asked LJ, cutie that he was, about the Magellan GPS $100 off deal. He picked up one of the $229 models and said it's $124 for today only. I thanked him and walked off, but he was already looking past me to the next customer who was approaching him.
I got the four registers...all of which were open, and without a line! that was amazing. While they rung me up, these two girls were talking about this guy who called in one day complaining, but spoke about himself in the third person, "Jimmy bought this at Circuit City Monday. Jimmy buys a lot of stuff at Circuit City. Jimmy doesn't like buying things that don't work. Jimmy wants to speak to someone about this." the girl said it took everything she had not to say, "Jimmy? Is that you?" And as we laughed, I got my bag and left.
And even more surprising, it was an easy ride home, more traffic than normal, but nothing insane.
Maybe the Black Friday gods were looking out for me, since they know if I didn't have to work Black Friday's I'd not go out of the house at all. hell, I probably wouldn't even get up until noon.
POLT
Listening to "Days Go By" by Dirty Vegas
Not like those freaks that get up at 3:00 in the morning and stand out in the freezing November cold waiting in line to be one of the first in the store when they open at 4:00am. Not, like my cousin and his wife, who were going to the outlet stores at midnight, cause that's when a couple stores were gonna have all the best sales. Nope not at all like that.
But when other people mentioned it and all the deals available on Black Friday, I'd always say that I'd rather pay a hundred dollars more for something than have to deal with the crowds and traffic and insanity.
But I saw advertised somewhere that Circuit City was going to have the Magellan GPS systems on sale, a hundred dollars off, just today. And since mom will be driving most places by herself now, I wanted to get her a GPS system. Not only for planned trips to places she's never been, but what if she's going somewhere and makes a wrong turn? This will help her get back on track.So after work, I got to Circuit City, about 4:15 pm. The traffic was heavy, but not insane. And I parked well enough away from the front of the store that I didn't have to deal with people fighting over the closest parking space while trying to navigate between package laden shoppers. I didn't mind the walk.
Inside, again, it was busy, but not insane. I asked a guy about it, and he directed me to the back of the store to a guy names LJ, that was his department and he'd help me. I also at this time noticed they had four registers open, and at least three people in line at each one. I groaned inwardly.
I got back to the section he indicated and I found a whole display of Magellan GPS thingees, but the tags said they were 229...not the ones on sale. So I wandered around a bit, dodging carts, people and displays. I found another Magellen GPS system for $399...but I didn't want that one. See, this is primarily for mom (although I may want to borrow from time to time), and I didn't need something that had a whole bunch of bells and whistles and gadgets she wouldn't use anyway. I wanted a simpler version.
Finally, I located LJ, but before I could make eye contact, this lady in her 50's pushing a cart full of boxes and well as three bags from different stores, pushed right up to him and asked where something was. I didn't hear what she wanted. but LJ told her it was up front with the rest of those things. The lady said she came from there and the girl directed her here. LJ assured her what she wanted was up front. Then she got all huffy and was like, "Well you people need to know where your inventory is. I am NOT going to walk back and forth around this store just because you people don't know you're jobs. If it's not up there, I am walking out leaving all this mechandise here, and you people will be out a sale!"
My thought was, good riddance, don't let the door hit yer ass on the way out. but of course, I didn't say that. Perhaps if she hadn't been up for twelve hours shopping for ten, fighting her way through the crowds, she might not have been as nasty. But eh, whatever.
I asked LJ, cutie that he was, about the Magellan GPS $100 off deal. He picked up one of the $229 models and said it's $124 for today only. I thanked him and walked off, but he was already looking past me to the next customer who was approaching him.
I got the four registers...all of which were open, and without a line! that was amazing. While they rung me up, these two girls were talking about this guy who called in one day complaining, but spoke about himself in the third person, "Jimmy bought this at Circuit City Monday. Jimmy buys a lot of stuff at Circuit City. Jimmy doesn't like buying things that don't work. Jimmy wants to speak to someone about this." the girl said it took everything she had not to say, "Jimmy? Is that you?" And as we laughed, I got my bag and left.
And even more surprising, it was an easy ride home, more traffic than normal, but nothing insane.
Maybe the Black Friday gods were looking out for me, since they know if I didn't have to work Black Friday's I'd not go out of the house at all. hell, I probably wouldn't even get up until noon.
POLT
Listening to "Days Go By" by Dirty Vegas
Some boys kiss me, some boys hug me (Part 107)...
Frenching Fridays
POLT
Listening to "Lucky Man" by The Verve
Keep your numbers mounting (Part 14)...
55 Fridays
Today is 55 Friday, and I got nothing. Zero, zilch. A big flaming hot heaping plate of bubkiss. With a side of empty. To go. Drawing a blank. No idea. The big old goose-egg. Writer's block. My imagination is bare, cold and barren. A Blank slate. Of course, I did manage to get 55 words.POLT Oil: 98.27 (+1.10); gas: 3.10 (-)
Listening to "Doctor, Doctor" by Robert Palmer
Thursday, November 22, 2007
In reno on thanksgiving day...
To all my visitors from the USA, Happy Thanksgiving!!! May your day be filled with food, family, fun and football!
To all my readers from elsewhere in the world.....um, happy Thursday?
POLT
Listening to "Ride It" by geri Halliwell
To all my readers from elsewhere in the world.....um, happy Thursday?
POLT
Listening to "Ride It" by geri Halliwell
Undress me, will I look like a fool (Part 84)...
Yes, kids, once more it's time for....
This week, HNT Master Os decreed that we'd have a theme: an HNT with your mp3 player. Well how could I resist a good theme week?
This, kids, is Uncle Polt with his iPod. I got it back in 2004 for Christmas, and now I can't remember how I ever got along without it. You probably can't read it, but the song that I'm listening to is "Pinch Me" by the BareNaked Ladies...the closet I could get to a Half Nekkid Thursday band.
And yes, in case you're wondering, the rest of me, thankfully cropped out of the photo, is fully naked, so this photo is, this week, Half-Nekkid.
To see what other posted, with and without thier mp3 players, click the HNT button in my sidebar.
POLT
Listening to "Hallelulah" by Jeff Buckley
This week, HNT Master Os decreed that we'd have a theme: an HNT with your mp3 player. Well how could I resist a good theme week?
This, kids, is Uncle Polt with his iPod. I got it back in 2004 for Christmas, and now I can't remember how I ever got along without it. You probably can't read it, but the song that I'm listening to is "Pinch Me" by the BareNaked Ladies...the closet I could get to a Half Nekkid Thursday band.
And yes, in case you're wondering, the rest of me, thankfully cropped out of the photo, is fully naked, so this photo is, this week, Half-Nekkid.
To see what other posted, with and without thier mp3 players, click the HNT button in my sidebar.
POLT
Listening to "Hallelulah" by Jeff Buckley
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Oh, it's that hanukkah thing...
Yesterday, this would be November 20th, i was driving to work and flipping through the channels, as I'm wont to do. And I came upon a snippet of one of the Hanukkah songs, by Adam Sandler.And I turned that station as quickly as I could.
See, when i first heard the Hanukkah Song, the FIRST one, about...oh 15 years ago or so. I laughed. It was funny. I think I even laughed and listened to it the next five or six times I heard it. Of course, hearing it more than a dozen times in one Christmas season is just too much, like eating that whole pint of Ben & Jerry's Cherry Garcia Ice Cream. You enjoy it at first, but after a while it just makes you sick to your stomach.
And then over the next few years, I could listen to it about two or three times before I had to change the station when I heard it...before it made my brain bleed. And then he comes out with a NEW Hanukkah Song, which is the same song, just naming different favorite Jews. Yeah that one lasted longer than left-over gefilte fish. And the third one, well I'm not sure I've even heard that one all the way through yet.
Adam Sandler's Hanukkah Songs...a dreaded Christmas traditions like fruitcakes, visiting relatives, and paper cuts wrapping the presents.
POLT
Listening to "More Human Than Human" by White Zombie
Waiting for the train, take it to the runway (Week 2)...
So Marion goes home. Ho-hum.
He was a deadwood anyway. And he was doomed from the beginning because he had no...personality. No Bam-Pop! Nothing that drew the attention of the audience, or more importantly, the producers. They need drama and conflict, and Marion was a quiet little guy in weird clothes. His days were numbered from the first episode anyway.
But the tears this week, my lord: Carmen and I think Christian on the Runway, Chris March upon seeing SJP (although that made me chuckle) and Ricky's apparenlty obligatory tearfest during the "confessional". He should be crying, but about those ridiculous train conductor hats he wears. *SIGH*
POLT
Listening to "Personal Jesus" by Depeche Mode
He was a deadwood anyway. And he was doomed from the beginning because he had no...personality. No Bam-Pop! Nothing that drew the attention of the audience, or more importantly, the producers. They need drama and conflict, and Marion was a quiet little guy in weird clothes. His days were numbered from the first episode anyway.
But the tears this week, my lord: Carmen and I think Christian on the Runway, Chris March upon seeing SJP (although that made me chuckle) and Ricky's apparenlty obligatory tearfest during the "confessional". He should be crying, but about those ridiculous train conductor hats he wears. *SIGH*
POLT
Listening to "Personal Jesus" by Depeche Mode
Cut thier hair short, wear shirts, and boots (Part 19)...
Wife-Beater Wednesday
POLT Oil: 97.17 (+2.72); Gas: 3.10 (-.02)
Listening to "Let Forever Be" by The Chemical Brothers
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
An Utterance, information, don't mince words (Part 68)...
TMITuesdays
1. What's the sexiest gesture a woman can make?
A woman? Um, maybe pointing to her really cute and sexy bi-curious boyfirend and nodding her head to tell me it’s okayfor me to proceed?
2. What are 3 inevitable things about you?
I’m gonna laugh.
I’m gonna shit.
And I’m gonna ejaculate.
Hopefully not all at the same time.
3. What do you want . . . . now?
Toronto. Work sucks today, too busy, just like yesterday, and I want to get away from it all and take a walk down Church Street in a light rain, or walk down Yonge Street and just look at the sights, hear the sounds, and gawk at the people.
4. What asset do you have besides the physical and the material?
Well my ass is pretty big so…oh, wait……um, I guess I have a pretty good sense of humor (NOT illustrated by the stupid joke at the begninning of this sentence, obvioulsy). Thats not physical, is it?
5. Describe a sexy mind.
One that can think up something to do or say that makes me purr...without any prior input from me.
Bonus (as in optional):What are you thankful for this Thanksgiving?
I’m thankful that my father died peacefully, at home, with us around him. I’m thankful that mom and I are there for each other, and have a great bond so we can lean on each other if we need to. I’m thankful that I got to know my father better at the end, and even afterwards, through stories and tales of those that knew sides of him I never saw. I’m thankful for everything my parents gave to me, gave up for me, and the love I they gave to me.
POLT
Listening to "Ring Of Fire" by Social Distortion
Monday, November 19, 2007
You can kill them in the classic style...
I'm on my way home from work tonight, flipping through the radio stations trying to find something, ANYthing to listen to. Then I come upon "Cheap Sunglasses" by ZZTop. Not a favorite song of mine, but one I can listen to, and sing along with. And then, "All Apologies" from Nirvana. I LOVE Nirvana, so I listened and sand all the way through that. And following that was the song "Cum On Feel The Noisz", by....some mid-80's hair metal band. Unfortunately, I knew enough of that song to sing along a bit. And then there was a station promo, this particular station plays "classic" rock.And I damn near wrecked the car.
Classic Rock??? Nivana???? Nirvana is Classic Rock???????????
I know at some point in time that would happen, but holy Keith Richards' shriveled liver, there's no WAY it could be THIS soon. I mean Nirvana was only, what......fifteen years ago?
And I damn near wrecked the car again.
Fifteen years!!! Can it really be that long since they were big? It seems impossible, but it is so. Nonetheless, isn't 15 years too soon to be 'classic' rock? In the mid to late 80's, when I was in my big 'classic' rock phase, I listened to the Stones and the Doors from the late 60's....and Fleetwood Mac, Pink Floyd, and Led Zeppelin from the 70's.....and they were considered 'classic' rock then, a scant ten years later.
So, yeah, I guess Nirvana IS 'classic' rock. Someone go get me a walker and dentures now.
On a related note, I was reading another blog and then mentioned how a local radio station had Gen X weekend, where they'd play music from each year of the 90's during a set period and only that music. And he said it just reminded him of how much current music sucks (and NO, this guy is NOT ancient like Uncle Polt, he's 24), as compared to the 90's. And it's true. music now DOES suck. It's all coporatized, and mixed and fiddled with to an inch of it's life.
What we need now is an injection of a new Nirvana! Someone to shake up the crappy status quo and give us real, GOOD music again, like Nirvana did in the early 90's!
POLT
Listening to "Don't Call Me Baby" by Madison Avenue
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