Okay, kids, I came home this evening and discovered that my computer was fucked up. I tried to fix it myself, but natually, that probably just made it worse. So i called a good friend of mine who works in IT at a local company, and he told I had a nasty NASTY virus.

he told me that HE had gotten the same thing a little bit ago, and it took him over and hour to get everything cleaned up. Then he helped me walk through some things. We dicsovered that apparently, I have the virus worse than he did because I have less protection. yes, yes, it' smy own fault. on dial-up I didn't need all these things and so i didn't have them. My Norton anti-virus is three years out of date, my Spybot hasn't been updated for like 4 months or more, and apparently, I don't have a firewall of any kind set up. he told me he was surprised I went almost a month without catching something like this.

We tried to get me online so I could go to a website that has all the clean up stuff I need on it, but NOOOO, couldn't get online. My only option is to go to his house and pick up a disc and instructions that he'll make for me, which i will do tomorrow.

However, tomorrow, I have to work, and then go to the viewing of my co-worker who was sick with cancer and who died Tuesday, and THEN I'm supposed to go to a movie and possibly drinks afterwards with friends to celebrate my birthday. So I don't know when I'll get to try to fix my computer, if it's indeed even fixable. Pfffft, some fucking birthday tomorrow is gonna be.

Anyway, I'm posting this on a friend's computer (thanks, Ag!) So you guys know what happened. I have no idea when I'll post again. Hopefully I'll be able to get this all cleaned up and everything will be back to normal on my computer (albeit with much mroe security than before), but who knows, it could take days, or I might ahve to scrap the computer totally and get a new one, which REALLY fucking sucks. not su much the getting a new computer (I mean, Christmas is coming, I could always finagle a new one somehow) but I don't want to lose all the personal photos I've taken, or all the letters and stuff I've written. If we can't salvage the computer, I just hope we can salvage that stuff.

Anyways, guys, I'll be back when I can. i'll still be able to check your blogs from work, or maybe from a friends (please, Ag...) if needed, but when I can post again...who knows?

I love computers, but i HATE shit like this!!! Arghhh!

have a nice weekend, y'all. talk to ya soon, I hope...

POLT